5 posts tagged “creative writing”

I was struck the other day by this thought. It began with me remembering in my pocket-notebook that I have no control over anything outside my mind, which is a bit of a misleading thought since nothing is outside my mind, but in the dualistic Western sense of reality it is very important to remember, all the same. What happens to me, whether by specific people or circumstance, is beyond my control. This lead to some other interesting thoughts and a hasty ditty, and I finally got around to typing them out of my pocket-notebook:

I must remember
I have no control over what happens to me, or what actions others take upon me, except to control my own actions. I can only control what happens within my mind - which is everything.
Be the person you would have all other people be, and your aura will inspire emulation.
How could we think the outer world is anything but smoke when all that exists beyond the body, speech, and mind is free of our influence, as well as our experience - in fact it will never be a part of our reality at all yet we postulate and use the imagination to construct elaborate delusions about the surrounding expanse of space and the activity it contains - while really all of experience significant to us is happening right there in our mind, our skull.
No! A second thought.
The mind is completely free from the body - it exists elsewhere entirely - but it is aware of the body. It is stuck to it with karmic tar and deluded into thinking it belongs to the body and its transient world, somehow. It is synced with the body to preserve experience and reality - scared to be free - tied to Samsara/body by negative karmas, habits, and attachments (karmic tar).

Be free
Be free
Freedom is not law-bound
Freedom is not suffering
Freedom is not harming
Be free
Be free
When we are free we will grow
wings of compassion
and fly to the aid of our fellow sentient beings

Here's some insomniac ravings from 3:32. One of those questions that jars me out of my half-sleep to grab the laptop and write it down before it runs away.

How can one sleep when the world spins so violently past the capacity of eyelids?
I dream of sexy secluded spots and you visit sexy secluded spots and I wake up forgetting every orgasm.
I died eyes peeled, foot down, lurching forward on the ever-symbolic rolling cement.
My epitaph read memento mori and carpe diem and I'll take that to go.
I died afraid of sunsets, unconsciousness - acute sleep deprivation leading to my hands falling from the wheel.
I read somewhere once that Sofie didn't suffer in the accident. I wonder if she died dreaming.

The end is near
At twenty-eight
A life half-slept
Apocalypse
Matrimony
A quick phone call
Desperate plans
A long night ride
And that embrace
The broken hug
The killer arms
The setting sun
The end of time

(the result of boredom in class)

The report surged across the news media. Congress had passed the controversial bill that had been on the minds of many Americans, with varying opinions, ever since talk of it began in the House. "In exactly a year from this date, it will be illegal in the United States to drive a non-emergency vehicle where the temperature is over fifty degrees Fahrenheit. This policy is in response to an overwhelming cry from the American people - in outrage over the looming threat of severe global climate change and the disaster it entails." After the example set by the American people in order to promote the first important step towards sustainable living, seven other UN nations, including the United Kingdom, France, Switzerland and Germany in Europe, announced plans to pass similar policy within the next couple years. The year is meant as an adjustment period during which auto manufacturers and technicians will be trained for various government posts and projects, including the development of affordable transportation that can run on renewable fuel. People owning an automobile will also receive a tax cut, to help compensate for the depreciated value of their vehicle. The adjustment period will also enable bicycle manufacturers to meet the increased demand for their now-essential tool of society. A stipulation will forbid manufacturers and retailers from raising the price of their models during this period, preventing any potential price-gouging from occurring. Then I woke up.

Living in the now is vitally important because when you look back with regret, or forward with anticipation – you are suffering, or planting the seeds of suffering, and this distracts from Dharma. What is more important than living every moment in the best way you are able, and with your mind's full attention?

This is a philosophy I try to live by, but it is sometimes hard to forget unchangeable regrets, or shrug off anxiety about the unpredictable unpreventable future. All day (day 41) unpleasant things have been weighing on my mind. I should stop brooding now and get to bed. Do the sane ones sleep or keep awake?

Memory of a Rose

I stopped to smell the sweetest rose in all the world;
The aroma crept silk across skin and filled my lungs,
Driving all the fragrant memories from my mind.
Transfixed, I watched it fade away - rotten in my hands,
and was forever ruined on roses.